.i.believe.in.you....

I stepped on the scale today. 134 pounds. A far cry from my 118 back in high school. How can I have gained so much in so little time? It seems impossible, but I guess the scale doesn't lie (hmm). Well, I've decided today that this has to stop. I'm not happy about my weight, and I'm admiting it to all those that tell me I'm goergous and I don't need the change. I really want to lose weight, and this time I REALLY do mean it. Really. I just ache every time I sit and think about the summer before I left to college, I had just graduated from HS, and I was so excited and pumped about starting a new chapter in my life that I decided I wanted a new body to go along with it. I worked out every single afternoon the last month of my vacation. I remember how incredibly sculpted my body was. How, by the end of my session, I had emerged into this hot ,brunette goddess that all the guys wanted. My uncle, who was visiting me before I headed off, even told me how toned I was. Even my ex had mentioned it. I noticed such a change in my life that first semester at Emory. I had the confidence, finally, to be who I always dreamed of becoming. I had the self-esteem to rise ahead of my classes and turn out awesome grades. Even though I wasn't my "goal" weight yet (my imfamous "117 pounds" at 5'6 in sophomore year!), I looked good. And I knew it. But, my first semester then ended. It was after that when I stopped heading regularly to the gym because of my increasing workload. Now, I'm 13 pounds heavier. Maybe I'm not fat, How can you not see it?! I've got skin hanging onto every inch of body. I swear, I've turned into a whale ;)

...ok, so maybe I'm being overly dramatic on this, but it's really started to take a toll on emotions. I'm now motivated now to stick to it. No more excuses. I'm not going to be 20 something forever, and I'll regret this if I don't take action now. It may take months, but I'm determined.

I'm going to have her body again. (Right click the link and save it to desktop. Won't work if you don't :)

~~Beautiful.~~

Emily

	Day one: The beginning of a new me. ~Y~ 2003-02-28
	I stepped on the scale today. 134 pounds. A far cry from my 118 back in high school. How can I have gained so much in so little time? It seems impossible, but I guess the scale doesn't lie (hmm). Well, I've decided today that this has to stop. I'm not happy about my weight, and I'm admiting it to all those that tell me I'm goergous and I don't need the change. I really want to lose weight, and this time I REALLY do mean it. Really. I just ache every time I sit and think about the summer before I left to college, I had just graduated from HS, and I was so excited and pumped about starting a new chapter in my life that I decided I wanted a new body to go along with it. I worked out every single afternoon the last month of my vacation. I remember how incredibly sculpted my body was. How, by the end of my session, I had emerged into this hot ,brunette goddess that all the guys wanted. My uncle, who was visiting me before I headed off, even told me how toned I was. Even my ex had mentioned it. I noticed such a change in my life that first semester at Emory. I had the confidence, finally, to be who I always dreamed of becoming. I had the self-esteem to rise ahead of my classes and turn out awesome grades. Even though I wasn't my "goal" weight yet (my imfamous "117 pounds" at 5'6 in sophomore year!), I looked good. And I knew it. But, my first semester then ended. It was after that when I stopped heading regularly to the gym because of my increasing workload. Now, I'm 13 pounds heavier. Maybe I'm not fat, How can you not see it?! I've got skin hanging onto every inch of body. I swear, I've turned into a whale ;) ...ok, so maybe I'm being overly dramatic on this, but it's really started to take a toll on emotions. I'm now motivated now to stick to it. No more excuses. I'm not going to be 20 something forever, and I'll regret this if I don't take action now. It may take months, but I'm determined. I'm going to have her body again. (Right click the link and save it to desktop. Won't work if you don't :) ~~Beautiful.~~ Emily
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